ajmcc91

now its all a matter of pressure.
i look in the mirror and now I know Im thin. Atleast I am compared to the average american.
Now its pressure.
Last 5 pounds.
I just wanna see what I will look like. What i look like when i hit the two digit weight. its all curiosity.

Ive always been an extremeist of sorts. And this is just another obsession ive allowed myself to fall victim to.

okay a lot has changed.
i am recovering from i guess you could say anorexia. I lost a lot of weight. and gained a little back. which i am fine with. now Im focused on getting toned. I dont wanna gain all the weight back. im 110 now. but I wanna eat healthy and live healthy and feel healthy.
im considering going on the raw food diet. maybe the vegan diet. I dont mean to say diet as in my goal is to lose weight, but just that veganism or raw foods will be my 'diet'. if that makes since.

i wanna see how much will power I have. how much i can withstand. i like to see how far I can go.
unfortunatley I already ate, eggs and bread for breakfast.
unraw and un vegan. i know I could handle a vegetarian diet.
for i dont really eat meat.
i eat only whole foods. unprocessed.

Im trying to find support in groups thatll help me succeed to and keep me motivated to eat and be healthy. opposed to starving myself and losing more weight.

i wanna maintain my weight. is this even possible!?